Worst customer of the year goes to:

The random Jack wagon that came through last night. Okay, I know I am not skinny, but I'm proud to say I have LOST ten pounds since my last doctor's visit. This jackass comes through last night, first thing out of his mouth "Been drinking a lot of beer lately, or are you pregnant?"
I was absolutely speechless. My mouth dropped open and I could only stare at him before looking away and mumbling "No," and trying to hold my temper as I rung up his order.
He was a complete dick through the whole thing, but tried to wish me a goodnight when he was leaving. I think he got the picture when I threw his bag into his cart (he couldn't load his own bags either). I didn't speak to him after saying No. I didn't look at him, didn't do anything for fear I was going to go the fuck off on him and lose my job. Screaming at a paying customer in the middle of Walmart might look pretty damn bad.
I get a fucking shit load of brownie points for playing nice. I AM NOT a nice person, and I swear if I see him again you'll be seeing my post after getting fired for walking away from the register. I'll do it, too; I swear to God I will walk away next time someone pulls that bullshit card on me.
He had no reason to be cruel to me, I did nothing wrong to him for him to act that way toward me.
I already have enough self image problems without doubting myself even more. I know I'm losing weight but what he said was like dropping a huge rock on me. I already paid my due with an eating disorder... People like him make me remember why I had problems before; because to be perfect in this world you have to be skinny... or at least that's what my demons whisper to me after nights like last.
I'm so fucking tired of this place. I'm tired that the managers don't stand up for the cashiers, that we constantly have to deal with bullshit people day in and day out... I don't think I'm going to last there much longer. I'm just so tired of people.
I just don't know what to do anymore.

Seeing Transformers :) happy happy, but boy do I have a story for you later!

YAY!

I'm happy, I'm going to see the Transformers 3 movie with my sister tonight at midnight :p it's been a while since I did a midnight showing and I am honestly thrilled to be going.
I didn't expect to go to it, but got her to agree to drive me (paying for her ticket helped too) so all is well that ends well!

^_^

Ready, steady, go!

Another day, another dollar. I work once again (6 days in a row before my break) and I'm sitting here listening to the afternoon storms rolling in. It seems like they pick just before I leave for work to come storming in. I got lucky yesterday in that the rain waited until after the storm had rolled over my work to start coming down in buckets.

I'll be leaving soon just to give myself time to buy a five hour engery shot and maybe a pack of smokes... (I'm trying to quit, really I am... it's just this job drives me crazy and... I know, I know). The smoking thing is driving me nuts because I know how much my mom hates it. She quit after 30 years of smoking and here I am...

Anyway, on another note. I need to watch Hills have eyes again, I think I've turned my characters into a bunch of sissy boys. At least watching the movie will get be back to where I want to be with the plotting. I'll watch the original and then the remake :)

I also bought Splice (loved it) and The last house on the left. I didn't realize that LHOTL was the original (damn them for remodelling the case) but I figure I might as well watch it :p

Almost time for me to flee, so I better make sure my dad's awake to take me. Tomorrow is my long shift (again) with 10:30am to 7pm (HATE that shift) I also have to do my shopping after work so I'm sticking around until my ma gets off at 9(not fun)

Well, off I go! :) which me luck and hope I don't murder my customers! or quit.

I lol at that given my last blog. But all is well in work world.

Ugh why do I have to work so much? My feet are killing me!!!

Nervous?

I'm sitting here feeling very unsure. I saw one of the managers gesturing at me last night while talking with my CSM. Now when I went to check my third week work shift; I don't have one. I checked mom's to see if maybe it was a company thing but it's not; she has hers and I don't.
Maybe I'm just reading into this too much. But I'm scared they're going to fire me. I don't know what I did wrong but I don't think I can handle being fired... I'll burst into tears and be a total wreck... All this after I thought about quitting time out of mind.

Oh well, what happens happens. I can't do anything to change it if they fire me.

My guilty pleasure: buying cute sleepwear even tho I have no one to share it with.

Family Tree - Eden

Well, I promised on FFN that I would post the Family Tree of my Yuma Flats family :)

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Michael Grace and Susan Lewis -
Samuel, Edith and Leeann

Samuel and Edith -
Haven (First child, died shortly after birth), Hades, Neptune, James and Jupiter, Juno, Cyst, Bryon and Kathrin.

Jupiter and Juno –
Goggle and Mars

Hades and Juno -
Pluto

Neptune and Juno -
Lizard and Ruby

James and Juno -
Erik

James and Kim –
Alexis

Neptune and Kathrin –
Sol, Lukas, Mathew, Jon, Mark, Kyle, Lisa, Merry, Edith.

Hades and Leeann -
Quinn, Soul, Demon, Zero and Van.

Sol and Levi –
David, Damon, Silvia, Sky, Loki

-- That’s all thus far--

Interesting customers and nightly news

You know, I meant to write about this right after it happened but I just started the rewrite on Eden and am so thrilled with that that everything else simply slipped my mind :)
This happened last week and was probably the creepiest moment in all of my cashiering life thus far. It was a slow night because of the rain and I was on a belt along with two other cashiers (one girl and one guy) we were joking around when two customers chose my lane and I signed in to ring them out.
Both of them are wearing skinning t-shirts (the type hunters wear or whatever) and buying some of the weirdest items I've ever seen (Bleach, towels, skinning knife, big black trash-bags, hangers, and bullets). I didn't think much about the items until I finished ringing them up and the couple stood there in a daze chatting with me as I tried to get the guy to pay for the order and leave me alone. The conversation had the cashiers' around me standing there with their mouths hanging open.
Male Customer: Your skin, it's so beautiful.
Female: Oh, so pale, how did you get it so pale?
Me: Uh... I'm Irish.
Female: Irish and what?
Me: Scot
Male: Isn't that the same thing?
Me: Don't tell a scot that. :D
Female: *Looks at male* That's the type of skin I want
Male: :) I told you we'd get it
Me: Uh... your total is... um... on... the screen. *Getting nervous*
Female: But she is perfect! *pointing at me* What time do you get off work.
Me: *Lying* 2am
Male: *Looks at female* fine.. later... *pays for the order* It was a pleasure doing business with you! :D
Me: Same... have a goodnight
Female: See you later Ms. Irish!

I was so fucking freaked by them that I made my dad come into the store to get me when it finally came time for me to leave. I kept thinking "OMG, these freaks are going to kidnap me and do horrible, horrible things to me!"
I'm still wondering exactly what the hell that was all about. But I haven't seen them since and hopefully never will again!

So, at the moment I'm enjoying my day off, getting ready to write Chapter three of Eden (I'm doing short chapters because they're easier to handle with my random, messed up life) and making a German Chocolate Cake :) But while I was really looking forward to it earlier that kind of changed after I took some Emergen-C (a cold med that is supposed to help you fight a cold) I don't think I'm sick right now but I've been feeling a little worn down so it can't help to take it and hope for the best, yeah?

Anyway, I'll post chapters 1-2 on here for Eden later :)
Nighty night

Father's Day

Well, Father's day is tomorrow and it always leaves me facepalming because I can't help feeling like it sneaks up on me. I work at Walmart so I know this isn't true, I've known about it for weeks (hello, the cards were put out right after Mother's day) I guess the real issue is the big difference between Mom and Dad.
For me, my mom has always been there for me through thick and thin. She's totally my favorite parent and I'm glad she's my mom. Dad on the other hand never felt like more of a dad to me... he was always coaching soccer teams and things of that nature when I was growing up. I hated sports with a passion so Dad and I never saw eye to eye; plus he always made me feel like I was a bit of a let down.
When I started writing I was happy I could do something that nobody else around me could. I thrilled that I could create these stories, craft them into readable works, and just enjoy something that I worked my ass off to create. Dad never saw it like that. To him it was always a waste of time.

So father's day has never had as much meaning for me as Mother's day. I'll get him a card when I go to work tonight but... honestly I'm just not that excited about it. I work all day tomorrow so I wont see him until the evening anyway... :(
I'm a bit depressed now... I think I'm going to go and find something to make me laugh/smile. I'm hooked on Unfriendable :)

Work updates

Been a while since I actually wrote something interesting... I know. I'm doing my best to balance out an ever changing life with one that wants to stand completely still. I don't like change, it scares me far too much but my life is changing and I just have to adjust to it.
During this period of adjustment my muse runs and hides beneath the bed and doesn't come out for weeks. When this phase passes I'm sure he'll come back with a new story :)  (yes, I think of my muse as a he).
I'm also dealing with moral issues toward some of the subject matter my muse wants me to write... I'll have to think it over very carefully before I actually write these stories out because they are very morally wrong by normal standards.

ANYWAY...

I picked up four extra hours at work tomorrow, I'll be going in at 3 instead of 7, and during those four hours I'll be working out on the floor (YAY!) I'm a bit freaked because I've never worked the floor before but I'm willing to do my best so whatever :D

I'll try and get you some more updates on DA and here... hopefully everything works out alright.

:)

Well, a shower certainly made me feel a little better, plus I did my hair in a cute style, stole my sister's shoes (I love them) and found a pair of work pants that I didn't know I had, they're cute and comfy which is delightful!!!!
On the whole this is not a bad monday :) I figure I'll curl up with my book for a bit and then off to work I go :D

Yes, I am feel a ton better about tonight, I guess changing your POV really does help. I still don't love this job, it is stressful and mostly a pain in the ass but I will do my best.

Needing a little R&R

Never again will I give up my day off to work, Jezz I am tired of that place! I mean, the money will be worth it (or at least that's what I'm telling myself) but I am just so exhausted right now it's not funny. Tonight's shift is 6 and a half hours long and I should be done by 11pm. Yay for that! (I don't mind later shifts to be perfectly honest with you. Tomorrow is a 4 and a half, I have two of those in a row and then one four hour shift before my next break.

But, at the very least, my manager took note and thanked me yesterday, which was surprising and delightful all at the same time :D
Happy happy joy joy!

Okay, going to go watch movies now! :) I have a game review to write as well!

New Story! :D

I'm still working on Angels fall, but I have a feeling that that story will take me some time to complete, maybe years (before I like it anyway) so in order to keep my spirits up I'm writing a story that will be posted on DA and Fictionpress at some point in the future. The idea behind it is simple: What would happen if one day you wake up to find yourself in the role of a fairytale princess? This is exactly what happens to Alice, a normal young woman who finds herself in the shoes of Snow White.
She wakes to find herself not only to find herself in SW's shoes but discovers that the story has gone horribly off track. The King and Queen are dead and the Evil Queen has taken the Huntsman as her husband while using a spirit named Mirror to spy on the rest of the kingdom.
Alice is cursed and unable to tell anyone who she really is, though Mirror knows she is not the proper Princess... and the whole story is just a blast to write! I am thrilled beyond belief with it lol

I'm sitting here hoping my mother arrives home in time for me to make it to work; I will be furious if she is not because she KNEW damn well what time I had to go in today...oh well, no use stressing over it. I'm just going to go with the flow and hope for the best! :)

Well, best get the rest of me ready; though with how tired I am... yeah... anyway. OH! I saw Super 8 last night with my sister (<--the reason I'm tired) it was a pretty good movie I must say, not my usual type but good nonetheless.

^_^ heh

Well, today was supposed to be my day off but I ended up picking up a six hour shift for tonight. I arrived at work last night and my manager asked me if I would be willing to take this shift since the cashier who was supposed to have it had other plans.
I need money so it'll mean a better pay check in the long run. Of course it also means I'll be going 9 days straight with no breaks :( That's one thing that sucks about it.

Well, hoping to get some writing done but I went to a late movie last night and now I feel exhausted. I'll probably shower and just relax before I have to be at work. :D

Another working day to go then my first saturday off in weeks!! Hoping to get some serious writing done :)

At the mall with my sister, hopefully going to shop, she is getting her hair cut. Apparently a pregnant womans hair grows insanely fast lol :-)

Good morning... where's my coffee?

I think the worst thing about living in a house with a bunch of people is when I get up in the morning and the coffee pot is empty. I am NOT a morning person by any stretch of the imagination. I exist, that's about all I can mange during the first few hours of the day; and that's with a couple cups of sugar and creamed to hell coffee. I end up staring at the pot of a couple seconds before letting a few curses slip out from under my breath.
I add another scoop of coffee to the maker and then the water, stand there for however long it takes to get enough for one cup and... *sigh* I begin to feel alive after that first sip.

Last night (as you saw with my cellphone posts) I worked a later shift that usual for me... okay, so lately it hasn't been that unusual and in fact my entire next week is chop full of till 11 shifts *that's where I begin cursing like a sailor* but I was so hyped up from work that I didn't get myself into bed until after 1am. I was supposed to go with my sister to get her hair cut (she needed a babysitter for her 2yr old) but when my mom mentioned going out to breakfast as well; I just pulled the covers up over my head and told them no...

Five minutes after they left however and I was in the shower trying to make my hair look presentable. Something about the workplace has been turning my hair into an oily mess; usually I wash it every other day and it looks fine... lately however I need to wash it EVERY NIGHT to keep it nice looking. I guess I need to look into a new shampoo or something.
Again, I have pictures I'm drawing of the Angels fall crew, I will have to post them later... I have over eight of them now I think, most colored (horrible). I don't like to call myself an artist because there are a thousand better than myself. These pictures are just for shits and giggles on my half, seeing how I imagine the characters, and it gives me a grasp of the colors of their skin and hair. Those I'm in the process of coloring Exile and had a heart-attack when I realized he was purple... the story him has black skin with purple highlights but I can't color skin black without it looking like shit, so I did it backwards, purple with black highlights :)

Okay, coffee is finally kicking in and I think I'll check DA and FB before tuning into the Casey Anthony case (<---FL thing, mother murdered her 2yr and is standing trail for it. Can't turn on the news without seeing it everywhere. Look it up, it is an insane case.)

Ps. My new saying is this: and I'm off like a herd of turtles. I dont know why I find that funny but I do :-) Off to clock in to hell... I mean work.

Another work day begins with the typical traffic jam LOL. 4 and a half hours on my feet tonight. I have a love/hate with these shifts.

Angels Fall - Character Bio - Kay

Told you I'd post another one lol. This one is for my Hearth Spirit, Kay (Name subject to change) I think Kay has had ever name possible thus far but this one is sticking... maybe.

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Kay - Lady of the Hearth.
Kay and Silvana were born just two years apart and could not have been more different. Silvana held grace and beauty befitting a nature spirit, while Kay arrived with a ruddy and more homely look; suiting her role as a Hearth spirit.
Whereas Silvana was thrilled to marry Silas, Kay found herself reluctantly engaged and married to Aden the fire Lord. She did not agree with his love of war and his lack of understanding of home life drove her insane. They clashed from day one but somehow managed to make it work. All four of them were assigned to Earth at the same time, much to the sisters' delight.
Kay found earth to be a beautiful place and threw herself into any and all tasks given to her. When Kieran turned from the Maker, Kay did her best to handle the loss of some of her best friends to his darkness. She mourned them deeply and hated the fact that Aden was unable to understand her loss.
It was during that period of loss that she began spending many hours in the library of Master Vayu, the Master of wind.  Vayu was everything that Aden was not; he was kind and thoughtful, insisting that she take her tea with him in his study - and allowing her to remain there when she decided that the fire in his study was the best in all the tower.
What Kay failed to realize, seeing as she tought of Vayu as a much older man, was that the wind spirit was beginning to fall for her. His love of her was not lost on Silvana who would become the piece of puzzle that connect the two.

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As I said in my last character bio - Nen is the embodiment of a cheating husband. Kay is the cheating wife in this story. As much as I love Kay, she is one of my favorite characters, I hate what she does to Aden. Here is a man that is trying to show her how much he loves her and she just keeps seeing the negative parts of their relationship.
Vayu is also a difficult character for me to like, while he is charming and absolutely yummy... he come off as a slimeball inside my head. I wont ever agree with cheating on your partner, nope, but Vayu is the type of man that makes it seem okay; even going as far as to try and make Kay his wife after... certain things happen in storyland.

Well, I'll stop now before I give too much away... actually, you know what... :) Let me post a snip of story for you! <--At this time I have no readers so I feel like I'm talking to myself lol

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Angels Fall - Kay and Vayu meeting - Chapter 1 Draft -

Kay stretched her legs out and tilted her head back, the ends of her red hair falling into the water, which rippled. “I don’t know.” She admitted. “I just don’t feel like it is the right time, that’s all.”

“Or perhaps it is that Aden is not the right man?” Silvana said slyly. “I see the looks that Master Vayu gives when you two are walking together in the morning.”

“Master Vayu is a dear friend,” Kay chided, “I am loyal to Aden and you better damn well respect that, sister.”

“Calm yourself, I only speak jokingly with you.” Silvana patted Kay’s arm as she rose to her feet. “But I do say that you protest too much when it comes to our wind lord.”

Kay watched as Silvana walked away, vanishing behind some of the overgrown rosebushes. She leaned forward and rested her hands on her knees, staring off into the distance until she became aware of another’s presence within the garden. She looked up at the tall wind spirit and Keeper of lore within the Tower Proper.

Vayu was well respected by all; perhaps it was not so much of a surprise that Kay had begun to grow fond of him. She was a hearth spirit, a creature of comfort and care. She loved Vayu’s vast library and warm fires. She loved to curl up in the oversized chairs and read for hours on end. It seemed to her that Vayu did not mind the company. He was one of the elder spirits of their order; his mate had returned to the Maker’s side long before Kay had been placed on this world. She liked to think that her presence was welcome at his side; far more than it had been at Aden’s during the past few months.

Aden was the Fire Lord, a fierce man who never did things half asked. If he set his mind on something it would be his main focus until the task was done. At the moment he was focused at finding Kieran’s base of operations. The Void Lord had taken some of Aden’s most prized objects and destroyed them, that was not something a Lord of Fire easily forgave or forgot.

Vayu was kind to her; he treated her with respect and asked her opinion on the little matters that she was best equipped to deal with. As she gazed up at him she couldn’t help but think on her sister’s words. Vayu would be an amazing father, he would be kind and wise; raising a child who didn’t rush headlong into trouble but thought his way through things. She reached her hand out to him and smiled. “Sit with me a moment, Vayu, I miss your company.”

“And my company misses you, dear.” Vayu lowered himself down beside her and smiled. “What have you been doing out here all day, dear one?” he wondered.

“My sister called me out to speak with her,” Kay explained, barely containing the excitement from her voice. “You must keep this a secret, which I know you will. Silvana’s expecting!” she burst into giggles, leaning against him as she gazed happily up at the sky. “I am almost jealous with how blessed she is.”

“Does Lord Aden not desire children?” Vayu wondered.

Kay pushed herself away from him and sighed sadly. “It’s not that… Aden would try for a child if I asked…” she looked down at her hands. “But…”

“But…”

“But I wonder what sort of father Aden would be to a child.” Kay said in a rush. She looked up at Vayu and let her doubts show on her face. “I don’t want a child who will rush into trouble without thought, I don’t want to mourn my child’s death because he or she was too much like Aden!”

Vayu cupped her face in his hands and whispered soothingly to her. “Calm yourself there is no need to over react like this. Aden is a good man, he may not always be wise but he would not teach such habits to his child. I am sure he feels the same as you do about having a wise child.”

“Vayu, you give that man too much credit. Aden cares about warfare and battles. He does not care for nor understand matters of the home like I do…” she didn’t add that she thought Vayu understood them far more than her idiot of a husband.

Vayu cocked his head to the side. “Why tell me this?” he wondered, sounding saddened. “You tempt me far too much with these words of yours.”

Angels Fall - Character Bio: Nen

My inability to sleep strikes again. It's going on midnight and I can't bring myself to go to bet just yet... I figure I'll give you a character bio from Angels Fall.

Nen - Lord of the Water & Rea - River Spirit
Twins Nen and Rea were the best of friends growing up. No one was more surprised than they were when the Maker ordered them down to the newling planet Earth.
This was the first time that Rea had ever seen Cyrus, the Earth lord, and she was instantly in love with him. Nen didn't think the relationship was right given the age gap between Rea and Cyrus, when his sister asked for his blessing over her marriage to Cyrus he denied it and did not attend the ceromny. 
This broke Rea's heart and she never truly forgave her brother for it. Rea and Cyrus soon proved to be a wonderful match, with Rea always making him happy even after his best friend Kieran turned away from the Maker. 
But Kieran was not blind to Cyrus' love of Rea and how important the female was to him. He used Exile, one of Rea's old friends, to lure her away from the Tower Proper where she was later killed and her body put on display outside the tower. 
Nen was devistated by the loss of his twin, he never forgave Cyrus for failing to protect the girl and he saw the earth lord as the cause of her death (if they had not been a couple than Rea would never have been a target in the first place). 

Nen forced himself to continue on with his life. Lady Sevan, was sent to replace Rea's role as water spirit, after first she and Nen clashed horrible but soon Nen found himself falling in love with the female. They were wed and soon had a child together - Yuki. Yuki came as something of a surprise to the two water elements because she was not a water spirit herself but a Winter spirit.
Nen and Sevan began to grow apart after Yuki's birth with Sevan throwing herself into her role of mother and forgetting to be a wife as well. Nen accepted this and withdrew from her as well. It wasn't until he found a baby human that things turned from bad to worse...

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Now if I go any further I'll spoil the story lol. Nen is adorable but I can't help feeling bad for him. He is the embodiment of a cheating husband trying to decide if it's right or wrong to go after something when one is being neglected in their marriage... Sevan is not a favorite of mine... not at all. 

Yuki is an interesting character and I'll post a bio for her later on. Next up will be Kay (name subject to change, I've changed it twice already!)

 

Testing the phone text thingy ;) that way I can blog from work!!! Hahaha... Yeah no. ;p

Welcome!

I decided to do this since so much of my DA account journal is me complaining about personal issues... silly as it may sound I feel like I can vent a little more over here than I can on there. This is also the space I will be using to post new or WIP stories and chapters that I feel DA is too hard on (PWP, Smexy stuff etc...)

While I'm here I guess I'll do a little intro about myself. My name is Sarah but I go by Elisa more often on the internet than I do my first name (Elisa is short for Elisabeth which is my middle name, I played soccer with a bunch of girls' named Sarah so my coach decided I was Elisa). I'm 21, almost 22, years old and I live in the Sunshine state (Florida). I wasn't born here but so much of my life was spent in the swamp that I think of it as my birth state.

I used to babysit for a living; which drove me up a wall mind you, and then I got hired on as a cashier at Walmart. It's a good place to work if you're just getting started (which I was). I never held any respect for the job as a whole until I found myself doing it. :)
If you ever stop in a certain walmart and see me, say hi! lol, though I admit that I think the big-wigs might have a couple issues with my and my writing but whatever; this is my personal life - as long as I show up on time and work my shift I don't think they should be complaining :p

 My WIP stories at the moment are -
Flames of tomorrow - Rewrite.
Unnamed Alice in wonderland story.

Angel's Fall - Original story that has taken all my focus off my other projects. You'll be seeing a lot about that in the coming blogs. I'm in love with it really, the characters are AMAZING! :) and I'm not tooting my own horn, these guys jumped up and said "HEY, HEY! YOU, WRITER LADY, OUR STORY NOW DAMN IT!" and I bowed down and began writing about their story.

Well, there you go, my intro post to break the vigin blog. Please keep tuned for further updates and all that wonderful jazz.

Elisa.